magan

I haven’t had the chance to log in and check on everyone here lately.  Hope all my buddies are doing alright.  We have been having warmer weather (50s) so I have been walking more and doing some stuff that needed done without the snow.

I am getting a brace made for my knee so that will be a major help.  My gazelle is great but everytime I get on it out my knee cap goes so this brace will keep it in place while I exercise.  For the last 3 weeks only been buying “good” foods and put an end to the snacking when bored.  Hopefully when tom moves on to the next person I will see the results of no junk food.  I will try harder to make time to check in.

Good morning everyone.  I am trying to loose another 10lbs by my next doctors appointment on the 29th which can be done if I stay focused and keep planning meals instead of grabbing something on the go.

I have had it with people not being responsible at all.  As most of you know my grandpa has been really ill and had his leg amputated on nov 21, well he requires alot of work right now and no one is willing to make it easier.  The hospital social worker hired a in home nursing agency to send a nurse twice a week and a physical therapist 3 times a week which should be a huge help however they send a different nurse each time so they have no clue how he is recovering or what his lungs sounded like last time because of this he got pneumonia.  The intern at the hospital changed all of his medications without consulting his cardiologist so I spent 45 minutes on the phone getting that fixed.  The nursing agency needed a copy of the discharge forms so I copied them took it to them only to discover that the doctor never signed the forms so that was another hour trying to find out who was on call in the er on saturday morning.  The part that aggervates me most is we live 30 minutes from the city so we don’t have natural gas instead we have huge gas tanks that the gas company fills up when you get down to 20% and my uncle who was supposed to be checking pap’s gas let him run out.  It was 27 degrees yesterday and the man had no heat so after calling the gas company 3 times they finally showed up 6 hours laters.  I am not superwoman I can’t do everyone else’s jobs as well as keep my own things straight.  Many of you have been here before or may be currently here where you just feel like screaming at everyone “grow up and take care of your responsibilities”. 

Instead of eating from the stress I have decided its better to walk it off and almost worn the carpet in the hallway off from doing so.  Things will get better its just a slow process and I have had all I can take without telling some people where to go.  If this wasn’t enough the antibiotics they gave me for these infections (sinuses, both ears, and kidneys) didn’t work and when I called to tell them they never called any into the pharmacy so last night my eardrum busted. 

Well enough of my ranting and I am sorry to be so depressing just really needed to get all that off my chest.  Hope all of you have a great week and don’t loose focus of your goals cause you will get there.

I am still around just haven’t had the time to log on and check with everyone lately.  With the holidays and family issues time isn’t my friend right now.  Lost 10lbs since I was at the doctor last month I’ll take that wish it was more but its better than maintaining.

I haven’t given up by any means and fighting to keep my focus on my long term goals and not let the emotional eating enter into my mind.  My grandpa is back in the hospital with pneumonia and I am half there myself but they have me on strong antibiotics so should be able to start going for walks again soon.  Have been taking 10 minutes twice a day to do some exercise no matter what is going on.  Got in the habit of doing my physical therapy for my knees first thing in the morning before I get out of bed (trying to strengthen my leg muscles to keep my patellas in place). 

The new year is here and if you are like me and had a rough time sticking to your goals last year this is time to take control let go of the past and focus on the person you want to be in the future.  I am still trying to be superwoman and do everything on my own but now I realise unless I take out some time to make myself feel better I am of no use to thoses that need me. 

Hope all of you had a great holiday season and have you focus going into the new year.

Good morning everyone.  I am beyond happy this morning cause 4 of the gained 15lbs is out of here for good.  Thanks everyone for the support now on to the other 11.  Please remember to make time for yourself as most of us are rushed majorly around the holidays.

Good afternoon everyone.  Had a few minutes and thought I would let you know I have regained my focus and ready to get back on track.  I was really not happy when I went to the doctor thursday and that scale said 359.  I know it was the emotional eating and lack of exercise it was totally self inflicted and I am pissed at myself.  This is just another challenge in life that I have to win.

I am getting a bit of help with pap as a nurse and physical therapist is comming in twice a week and all 3 of his kids are helping.  Taking him back to the doctor tomorrow so they can take the staples out and decide whether or not I can let him take the brace off.  I am proud of him he shocked the physical therapist cause he is strong enough to pull himself up and “walks” (more like hops right now) all over the kitchen to make himself a cup of coffee or get a snack.  Hopefully in a few months he will have his new leg and be ready to go.

Thought I would post my goals here for the week just so I am even more accountable for keeping them.

1. drink at least 4 glasses of water (yes it should be more but gotta start somewhere)

2. stay under 2,000 a day

3. walk at least 30 minutes a day (3 10 minute walks)

4. no fast food (my biggest weakness)

and finally 5. only healthy snacks

Ok enough of my rambling have a great day everyone.

Good morning everyone.  Happy Thanksgiving a few days early as I won’t be able to log in on thursday.  My grandpa called me at 7:00 happy as can be cause a nurse came in and told him to shave and she would be back to dress him cause he was comming home after lunch.  They were getting him ready and when my mother asked for the social worker to be sent up so they can make sure the hospital bed and wheelchair would be here when he arrived home there was no discharge papers.  If they got his hopes up for nothing this isn’t enough security in that hospital to keep me from ripping that nurse a new one.  It is deer season so there is no help in moving the house around to accomodate a wheelchair either.  I can honestly say I am past the point of stressed and it seems things are never going to ease up. 

My oldest uncle lives with grandpa on saturday night he took his girlfriend’s car to visit pap in the hospital but instead he went to a bar.  Pap called upset cause he was waiting on him and the girlfriend calls me crying that he won’t answer her calls and I have to take her to get her car (like I don’t have enough to do).  He was asked to take out all the trash, do the laundry (his own), wash the dishes (again his own cause pap has been in the hospital for 2 weeks), and feed his cat.  He managed to flood the kitchen, let a racoon tear up the trash on the porch, didn’t feed the cat, did 1 of the 5 loads of laundry and left that in the washer.  In addition to taking care of 2 houses, 6 animals, getting things ready for pap’s return, and answering questions and relaying information to hundreds of concerned friends I am trying to get a 41 year old to grow up.

I am sorry about the complaining just loosing my mind here.  Hope everyone has a great holiday.

Good morning everyone.  I had a few minutes so thought I would check in.  I miss all my buddies hope you all are doing alright.  The doctors amputated pap’s foot yesterday morning but he called me about 3:00 laughing and joking said it is the first time in 7 months he hasn’t been in pain.  I am relieved to know he is not suffering the severe pain many people do after an amputation.  I did a stupid thing let my emotional eating take over so up a few pounds not sure how many yet will check in a few minutes.  Thanks for being such great buddies.  Pap will be home in 3 weeks he has to stay in a rehabilitation hospital for 2 weeks so they can work with him on using what is left of his leg and moving about before he gets his prostesis in March.  I know that sounds like a long time to everyone but they have to give the nerves time to heal completely and the swelling to subside before they fit him for one.  I am remodeling his house as fast as I can but being disabled myself it isn’t easy.  My uncles are going to help widen the doors on sunday and pour ramps for the wheelchair.  Thanks again and I gotta get going.

I know it is not good to stray from the support I get here but I have to for a bit.  There is alot of things that need taken care of and honestly I won’t have time to get on much if at all.  My grandpa was put in the hospital on saturday night and is out of his mind really bad (today he thinks he is back in the navy) so the nurses have requested that someone stay with him at all times to keep him calm.  He ripped 3 IVs out in an hour last night cause they were “filled with beer” and as you know the hospitals are under staffed so they need the help. 

They rushed him into emergency surgery at 3:45 and said they would see us in 5 hours so I am sitting here at the house praying everything is going well.  It has snowed here and the roads are ice so worrying about family getting in safely also. 

Back to not being here, with everyone having jobs and staying with pap I am taking up their slack in the housework, errands, and whatever else gets neglected.  Many of you have been here before I am sure.  Running back and forth between 2 houses and taking care of 6 animals should burn a few calories of the million I have ate the last 2 nights from stress.

For those of you that don’t know I had a very bad expirence when I was a teenager (I was attacked and almost raped) so I don’t do well alone at night and that along with stress over pap is causing me to revert back to emotional eating.  My mom is really supportive and understands so she bought me a new wii game so I can move instead of sitting on my big butt eating.

Sorry about the rambling.  I love you all and will miss you while I am MIA.

1.  If no one sees you eat it, it has no calories.

 2.  If you drink a diet soda while eatin a candy bar, they cancel each other out.

 3.  When eating with a friend, the calories are cancelled out if y’all eat the same amount.

 4.  Foods used as medicines don’t have no calories.  i.e. chocolate used for energy, cheesecake eaten whole, and ice cream eaten anytime.

  5. Movie or TV related foods have no calories as they are part of the entertainment experience.

  6.  Cookie pieces contain no calories, because the calories leaked out when they got broke.

  7.  If you eat the food off someone elses plate, it don’t count.  It’s their calories, not yours.

 8.  If y’all eat standin up, it all goes to your feet and gets walked off.

  9.  Food eaten at Holiday dinners have no calories, as everyone talks so much that it all gets cancelled out.

10.  STRESSED is just DESSERT spelled backwards, don’t ya know!  So do it right and eat the dessert so you don’t get stressed.

Now I warn you this diet was designed by your treadmill or whichever exercise machine you use to get more attention. 

Have a great day everyone!

To keep myself on track and complete my goals for this week I have decided to post my food journal so everyone can see.  If that is not motivation to eat right I don’t know what is.

Breakfast - 1 english muffin and 2 slices of cheese made with 2% milk

Lunch - lean cuisine pepperoni pizza

Dinner - 2 chicken strips (baked), 1/2 mashed potatoes, and an ear of corn

Snacks - apple with 2 tablespoons fat free caramel dip, strawberry yogurt (only 60 calories), and this one I am not proud of I had 2 fun size pieces of laffy taffy.

That was yesterday’s journal.  Today’s plan is to have a whole grain bagel with fat free cream cheese for breakfast, pizza lean pocket for lunch, and for dinner mom is bringing home grilled chicken salad.  I never plan snacks which I know isn’t good so any suggestions for healthy snacks are welcome.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.